가슴이 사랑하는 법 - DNT

I AM OFFICIAL SICK, as in i think i have a cold and fever scratch that i DO have a cold and a fever. Feeling so sick and gross. I hate being sick, it makes me all hot and sweaty and my skin goes bad when i'm sick gosh i hate that !!! arghhh

makes me want to cry T.T



now i can't go out and play until i get better which is no fair and i know i sound like a brat but i don't mean it =P but not be able to go have fun makes me want to cry even more


god i got to stop crying these days kekeke

P.S
A lot of people around me are saying that i'm not there and that i'm always somewhere else with other people or doing something. they're saying i'm distant and that i'm cold and that don't care or want to care. well to those people who feel like this i apologize and i want you to know that i don't mean it, its just that i'm young and i like to have fun and move around, it doesn't mean i forgot you, its just that i want to experience other things and see the world. so please don't get mad and if you still feel like this than tell me because you know i don't want to be a Kim Kibum



p.s
susan, i don't think i can go noraebang on monday, too sick sorry

참아볼께요 - Rainbow

R.I.P Daul Kim

i can't believe she gone, she was such a beautiful model and a beautiful person and she will be miss.

웨딩드레스 (Wedding Dress) - 태양

I AM OFFICIALLY OBSESSED WITH THE CARD GAME GO STOP !

my nuna taught me and its so fun !!

i'm playing it on the DS at the moment and god dammit i'm losing T.T
how am i suppose to win back 2 mil to the character ARGHH ~

p.s
i'm so happy they had their comeback 2pm hwaiting !

p.s.s i'll write a better post later,
it'll be really long so please wait for it

Heartbeat - 2PM

THEY'RE BACK....
i don't know what to do
should i accept the six of them ?
but i want them to be seven
7=1
but i don't want to leave the others and not support them !
what should i do ?
i'm loving 기다리다 지친다 (Tired of Waiting) but it reminds me so much of J**
argh~ !
what to do ?

there's still a spot for you

빙빙빙 BingBingBing - FT. Island

since i am such an awesome friend,
i will give back my legendary love to you [i think you know who you are]

p.s if you didn't get it, i was being sarcastic

i promise to post something later

기다리다 지친다 (Tired of Waiting) - 2PM

I AM FUCKING ANNOYED AND ANGRY.
I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WOULD NOT SAY ANYTHING
SERIOUSLY WHAT IS THE PROBLEM

JUST FUCK OFF IF YOUR NOT GOING TO TRY

i'm so sick of waiting

You and I - 박범

oh i forgot to mention something in my last post
so i decided to make another one hahaha.
the new friend K**** has a nipple piecing, well some of my other friends have them too but yeah.
nipples piercings are so weird and i just want to touch it and pull it out ! i know i'm creepy but...got nothing. so anyway it made me want a piercing. not a nipple piercing, maybe i want an eyebrow piercing but not at the usual spot. i want it at the start of the brow or maybe in the middle. something different. heres a picture to help the less imaginative.
so what do you guys think ? need opinions.
and i know the picture sucks cocks but too bad

Bad Guy (나쁜 남자) - Rain 비

another day, another post
ok first i have to talk about the weather ~
it was so hot today, haven't had weather like this since last summer, which kinda makes sense =.="
anyway it was so hot that the penguins at the north pole were melting !
i don't like really hot weather or really cold weather i like in between weather. i love it when theres a nice breeze, sunny but not glaring, warm but not hot and not cold but cool. that's my dream weather.
anyway enough about the damn weather ! went to state again today to supposedly study but it was such a legendary day so i studied for 30minutes than spent the rest of the time outside.
i met alot of new people today. one was a guy name K****, his really funny when he drinks =D,
met a guy name R***** his half italian and Philippines supposedly, a dude name B***** his half japanese and russsian? i don't really remember. he has awesome eyes though so jealous. i wish i was half. half kids are hot but lets leave that discussion for another post.
anyway we decided to go have a beer because it was hot and a cold beer would be awesome but also because we're alcoholics which is not out fault its societies. so we stayed there for a while just drinking and smoking, such a bad habit. oh and while we were there choof chood and 傀儡的生活 came in and then just left, i waved but i don't think they saw me.

around sunset time the weather got much cooler and it look like it was going to rain and a storm was coming. which it did by the way.

i took the bus home but i miss the 7:30 one to i had to wait 45 minutes for the next one in the cold. it was really cold, damn myself for wearing shorts. but i look so cute so it was all cool.
oh and while i was waiting for the bus, there was a group of japanese people, they took the same bus as me and it was awesome. love the cute engrish ahahah !

anyways i'm tired and i gotta wake up early tomorrow to do some real studying.
so i will say 잘자요

Y.O.U - Shinee

nothing can stop me from loving you~ you~ you~

its 1:11 am,
have you guys heard of the urban legend that at 1:11am you think about someone unconditionally ? i think its cute how your force to think about someone against your will.
not much happen today wait, scratch that yesterday. i was suppose to go state and major study but i woke up at 11:47am, my tutor called me and kindly reminded me that i had a session today at 3, so i guess it was legendary that i didn't go to state.

PEOPLE don't message me in the morning or when i'm still half asleep ! for the past few days i've been getting messages in the morning and i do reply but i don't remember afterward that i replied or even received it. maybe i shouldn't read the messages until i've fully woken up. good idea ! self hi-five

before i went on a night bike ride, the weather was so nice and calm, the moon was enveloped by the clouds and a thunderstorm was blooming while i was riding around. i love riding my bike. i sometimes wonder what would happen if i just continued riding my bike, never stopping, not turning around, just riding to somewhere. i wish i had the courage to do that. i think i will one day. just you wait.

i think my posts are too serious, i should lighten it up alot more.

잠에 취해 - Drunk On Sleep

am i a bad guy?
i think i'm lonely because i'm not approachable
everyone tells me that i'm cold
i try not be
i can't help it
i smile more nowadays
i'm not sure if it helps though
i'm really not a bad guy,
so people of the world
if you see me on the streets
come up and say hello and i won't think that your weird
i promised


p.s
why am i such a melancholy person
god i depressed myself
gotta be happy
ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ

Where U At - 태양

its been a few days since i promise to update everyday, which by the way i have broken already...
i'm not very loyal am i ? uhhh i don't really know what to say type for these blogs.
oh yes i've decided to name everyone of my post a song that i like at the time, is that too childish ? maybe it is...

i'll apologize beforehand if my post are boring or mediocre, sowwy.


i've been feeling extra lonelier these past few days, i don't know why maybe its because i just graduated and high school is forever no more and that 6 years just went by like a speeding mice trying to escape the mouse trap. That wasn't a very good analogy was it ? yeah i didn't think so too. i'll think of better ones next time kekeke
Its also the idea of never getting to see everyone everyday again, we're all moving forward, for some its because we want to but for some, possibly someone like me we're force too. Let me tell you guys something, i HATE endings.
i can't stand them, they're too depressing. i even sometimes don't finish books i've read because i don't want them to end. am i pathetic in thinking like that ? please don't answer that. so right before i was talking to a friend and we were both saying how we wanted to find someone before D Day which of course is Christmas. Damn Christmas for discriminating all the single people in the world ! my friend said that they wanted a person who was cute and i wanted a person who was gooodlooking but easy going and are funny. my friend had o burst my bubble by saying that no person like exist. T.T someone prove my friend wrong please.
i think i wrote alot today ? i'll stop here.
p.s i'm lonely and looking for someone =P

genesis of a confuse child...

So...
This is my first time blogging, so i guess i'm a blog virgin ?
hrmm it didn't sound as cool as i thought it would, disappointment.
anyway...
i've never really like the idea of writing down what i'm feeling or even talk about them, its hard you know ! so i don't really know why i'm doing this ?! maybe its for attention ? yeah that's what someone might say [ivy]. ok everyone i'll try my best to write about my feelings like your my therapist and i'll try to update regularly, so follow follow me ~
peace out.