Baby Baby - 포맨 (4Men)

As promise earlier in my scandalous post which featured a certain "angel slut's" bazookas HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH (thank you deanna for the awesome euphemism), i am updating.

who is this i wonder ?

i guess a few things have been happening of lately, most are mediocre and the rest are just plain depressing.
i shall not enclose any details of these happenings but because of this i have been m.i.a with my social scene, that means no facebook, not replying to anyone's messages or call. i've been at home, restless and mostly moody, very moody. i genuinely feel very sorry for my family for having to deal with me and my chaotic mood.

yes this is me in one of my moods

But i've notice something, when someone told me something quite heartbreaking about a very close person to me. I did not cry nor did i feel any sadness, I felt no anger, no gut-wrenching feeling, to be truthful i felt nothing. Numbness, I guess is the word to describe it. Even as i am writing this blog i still feel nothing. I ask my friend, why don't i feel anything ? why can't i be like you and cry ? They answered me, i did not like the ambiguous answer.
This upsets me. I know i am cold but seriously, i can't be that cold and have no reaction. i think, no i hope that the rushing feelings of angst and sadness will hit me like a bullet then i'll be able to be there.

i apologize for this somber post but i guess my fingers took over and type what they willed.
i also remembered a promise i made to myself awhile ago, i will keep that promise no matter what. i will not succumb back to that person in the past.

아자 아자 화이팅 !

Oh 비, how you brought us happiness though Full House and great music through your "magic stick"

On a happier note, i shall come out of my m.i.a state and rejoin the world on tuesday. i still need time.
i still have many things to do this year, so i can't sulk anymore. hope to see you soon






p.s

i will be uploading my vacation blog soon~ hopefully =P